Happy Easter Sunday guys! So this is about to be one of those posts where I get real with you. I mean really, real. Real as in I’m sitting here on Easter morning alone with my dogs, eating cake, and trying to get some work done. I know what you’re thinking… uh cake? Super healthy Mallory. But actually the reason I’m eating cake is because my amazing husband just happens to be an amazing chef. Therefore he works literally every holiday. But today he was super sweet and knew I was kinda sad to be without him, so he brought me home a piece of cake from the restaurant to make my day better. So really, how could I not eat it for breakfast? Anyways, as I sit here enjoying this heartfelt breakfast I wanted to check in with you guys and talk to you about something new I’ve been dealing with lately.
I try to be a really consistent and solid person. If I make plans I follow through with them, if I set my mind to something I usually accomplish it. Last fall I came to the realization that I was spread way too thin between my career, home life, and social life so I tried to dial back and re-focus what I had going on. While this was a great move for me overall, it had the adverse affect of making me feel like I had to be really specific with new ventures and things I wanted to start up. It was almost like I put this huge cap on the level of creativity I had always known in order to not be pulled in too many directions. Turns out what really makes me tick as a person, excites me every day when I wake up, and fuels my creative fire is the fact that for most of my life I’ve had 10 million things going on. As well as not knowing what comes next!
I’m a pretty typical gemini. I like to be involved in everything possible and I love to help people. A big part of my life the past few years has been making a conscious effort to improve the way I operate my life on a daily basis. Things from time management to organization and even the way I communicate has really improved for me. I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished and I never want to stop learning. The problem I’ve been faced with recently however is that like I mentioned before, I started to feel obligated to pour myself into a few large projects fully instead of jumping in and out a bunch of smaller ones. For some people this may be a really good thing and honestly I’ve had a lot of people in my life tell me I’m all over the place and I need to find my niche. I tried to do this by putting 100% focus on my business, shut down my long running fashion blog, mapped out a more routine exercise regiment and began planning my week out in large chunks.
Sounds really good right? Well unfortunately for me, I just didn’t feel like myself. I have learned and even more so accepted that I need to be more confident in what makes me feel good. I love to say yes and be available to help my friends and family. I want to be a blogger, and a small business owner, and a wife, and a yogi, and a jewelry designer, and a world traveler and a dog mom and so many more things. I want to be ok with changing my mind about decisions, especially big ones. Now I’m not advocating to change your mind when it comes to serious things like accepting a job or buying a house. But if you feel deep down like you need to re-think something in your life then do it, and do it again and again. It’s ok not to have things figured out. It’s ok to be a work in progress. So that’s where I’m at today. I am 100% a work in progress but just knowing that I’m doing my best and I’m taking time each week to keep learning and expanding my horizons is good enough for now.
I’d like to end this post with a huge thanks as always to my girl Christine, who has been such a major player in my confidence with this blog over the past 2 years. I spent years and years as the one behind the camera taking photos for all my blogger besties in San Francisco and I’m so happy that today I am confident enough with her help to be the one in the photos. And you should all do the same! I was sad to make the decision to shut down this blog at the end of 2017 but I am extremely happy and grateful to be back here with you all today. So that’s it. Take the risk, fill up your plate with fun and exciting ventures, and ask for help if you need it – there will always be somebody out there ready to assist. And don’t forget that changing your mind about who you are, what you’re into, and what direction to take your life is 100% your choice. Make the most of it!